企鵝。塗圖畫

很突然很突然~小舅去世了
老爸第一時間告訴老哥說是車禍,老哥告訴我的時候,再過幾個小時老爸老媽就要帶著小表妹去大陸接小舅回家了
老媽選擇不跟我說,還是老哥叫我打電話回家我才知道

當然~老媽跟不跟我說似乎也不是甚麼重點

在老媽們回到台灣後,老哥跟我說,事實上小舅是跳樓的,憂鬱症

小舅今年50歲,離過婚,單身,有一個大三的女兒,就是我的小表妹
印象中,我還當過小舅的花童,在我還不大有記憶的時候,就離婚了,然後小表妹跟了媽媽,媽媽再婚不大照顧她

maybe it doesn't matter about car accident or suicide for the information that mom and dad told us 
but they have no idea that it has changed their daughter a lot

yes, i have changed my perspective dramatically

all friends of mine must know that i DON'T want marriage (but maybe i CAN get marry) and absolutely i WON'T have kids
but now, i think PEOPLE SHOULD HAVE MARRIAGE AS WELL AS CHILDREN

when i spoke to mom before they went to China, she saild it just happened, all in a sudden
and then the idea came out to me.....
my little uncle was single (maybe had gf), ex-wife didn't give him a shit, and my little cousin has no sibling
which means no one can deal with the matters after my uncle's death but my parents (well, my cousin is too young), 
besides, from now on, my cousin will be alone almost, she lost the closest one.

after that, i consider that everyone should have a consort or spouse to look after him/her not only for company but the things after death
otherwise, u will be alone and no one bury u, and it is the same reason for having kids
but it's cruel to have only one child, coz he/she will be alone, if something happened, no one he/she could discuss with, just like my cousin
if my uncle was the only one child, i couldn't image how the things would be going, how could my cousin face it

even i still don't like marriage and children, i have to convince myself that's what i must do sooner or later in the following days



however, after my parents back from China, my brother told me my unale was suicide, jumping from a building
as i heard this information, another idea come out.........

if i knew that at the very beginning, i wouldn't have such idea above, coz that's what he chose not really really an accident..........囧



my little uncle, wish u be peace in anywhere.